Friday 30 November 2012

How I Met Monique

Kids, in the summer of  2007 I met your Aunty Monique...

I sat in the corner of my dorm room, waiting for life's new opportunities to present itself. It came in the form of a short, dark girl whose youthful exuberance shone through her big smile and her big piercing eyes, that said hello to me before she even opened her mouth. She was very friendly but also, very talkative but I didn't mind and I welcomed the friendly gesture with a convincing smile. We shared social pleasantries about our high school lives and our interests and expectations for university life; We were both so eager and happy  for the new found freedom of university.

Later that day while we were out walking the corridors and getting to know the other students I met a young handsome foreigner that day, but that's is another story.  We decided to go to a party that same night that was put on by the seniors for us. Later, it turned out to be another one of those tests by the seniors and even though we weren't meant to enjoy ourselves, we totally did. We got so drunk and we partied like there was no tomorrow... Rather, we watched everybody else partied and we did not drink a thing because I don't approve of that sort of stuff kids.

Kids, we became best friends that day and Aunty Monique is still one of my best friends today.

The universe and me

When we're young, we all make plans of who we want to be, who we want to marry, how rich we are going to be and the list goes on; In our naive state of mind we plan out every detail in our lives. The older we get though, the more realize that achieving these goals are not as easy as it seems, at least  for some of us, and some of us may not even achieve one of these preset goals.
 In some cases as you get older, your mentality of the world changes and so does these initial plans. That's the great thing about life though, different opportunities present itself, even if these were not the plans you had in mind initially. When we look back on those days when we dreamt to be an astronaut, or a doctor, or a scientist and you look at where you are and what you are doing, you sometimes have to smile, smile because you realize now, that is not something you have an interest in as an adult. I wanted to be a veterinarian when I was younger and now, well I'm not a veterinarian. I lost my interest back in high school when I  realized that I was poor at Physics, my morbid fear of blood also assisted in me choosing another career path.

Some people go through years without knowing what they want in life and some from the get go makes a plan and work towards that plan. And now they are settled comfortably into what they want to do for the rest of their lives. This is so funny though, we go to school for many years, many, many years (primary, secondary tertiary) for us to find a job and work until we die,(who came up with these rules?!) but that is an aside. My point is that, it is only later in our lives that we realize that the universe has more control over our lives than we think. The universe works in mysterious ways though and I believe that ultimately, if you want something bad enough you will get it so long as you put in the work, but sometimes the universe makes some poor decisions on our behalf.

Run

I thought to run,
Run from the things I have done,
From the places I've been
From the things I've seen

Run without looking back,
Nor Looking forward,
Side tracked,
But life grows more and more miserable,
More and more desperate.

I thought to run in the rain,
Again,
Without thought, I'm sick,
Sick of your dirty words and your misgivings,
Sick of your, "I don't care"
And " I am the man"
Well, I don't fucking care,
I dont care that my feet gets tired,
Or that Im no longer inspired.

Still I continue to run,
Till my feet falls off,
And I cannot run anymore.

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Fault-less,
Guilt-less,
Pain-less,
Forgive the insults,
And the mistrusts,
Forgive the lies.
Pain-ful,
Harm-ful,
Possessive, crooked eyes,
Forgive the slanders,
And the potential cries,
Forgive me for the cock that I did not kill,
Forgive time for not holding still,
It's His will,
I couldn't convince him otherwise,
I can't change time,
Nor can I change minds.
Tomorrow when the cock crows,
I will pack my things and go.
Today while the rain falls,
I will pray tomorrow never comes,
For when tomorrow comes,
It will no longer be today,
So I pray,
I pray that cock dies before it opens it's mouth

The Apparition

Today, I lay guiltless in your bed,
My body half exposed,
My guard fully exposed.
Your eyes closed.
You are so beautiful,
An adonis,
Tomorrow when I wake up,
I will go,
I will forget your name.










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Optimism

Sometimes I get nervous,
And afraid,
That the world might end today,
Or that something from the sky will fall on my head.
In any case I'm doomed
Doomed to a life of mediocrity.

Optimism can be so exhausting,
Especially when you know the outcome.

Now I'm just dancing,
Dancing to a known tune,
But to a known fate,
Dancing until my feet falls off.
The music never waits,
And there is no open door.







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